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Blurb (from Goodreads):
Mattie shouldn’t be at the bonfire. She should be finding new maps for her collection, hanging out with Kris, and steering clear of almost everyone else, especially Jolene. After all, Mattie and Kris dropped off the social scene the summer after sophomore year for a reason.
But now Mattie is a senior, and she’s sick of missing things. So here she is.
And there’s Jolene: Beautiful. Captivating. Just like the stories she wove. Mattie would know; she used to star in them. She and Jolene were best friends. Mattie has the scar on her palm to prove it, and Jolene has everything else, including Hudson.
But when Mattie runs into Hudson and gets a glimpse of what could have been, she decides to take it all back: the boyfriend, the friends, the life she was supposed to live. Problem is, Mattie can’t figure out where Jolene ends and she begins.
Because there’s something Mattie hasn’t told anyone—she walked away from Jolene over a year ago, but she never really left.
Poignant and provocative, Marcy Beller Paul’s debut novel tells the story of an intoxicating—and toxic—relationship that blurs the boundary between reality and fantasy, love and loyalty, friendship and obsession.
My rating: 3 of 5 stars
“What if we’re both not real?”
“We’re not,” I said. “We’re better than real. We’re the two little girls.”
This was one of these books where I got to the end, and still couldn’t figure out what it was really about.
Mattie was a fairly normal girl, but her relationships with her friends were a little confusing. She was best friends with a girl called Kris, and basically didn’t really talk to anybody else, and all because Kris had had some sort of falling out with a girl called Jolene. In fact Jolene seemed to be a major cause of problems in this book for everyone.
The storyline in this followed Mattie as she started a relationship with a boy called Hudson, who also happened to be Jolene’s ex. She reinvented herself a bit, but felt like she constantly lived in Jolene’s shadow. Kris was grounded, Mattie moved her relationship on with Hudson, and Jolene was noticeably absent from school. There was a bit of a mystery surrounding what had gone down between the 4 of them that Kris wanted to split from Jolene and the rest of her friends so drastically, but the mystery wasn’t really enough to keep the story interesting, and the romance wasn’t really enough either.
The ending to this wasn’t very memorable, and an hour after finishing I can’t really remember it at all, other than the fact that it didn’t feel like much of an ending at all.
6 out of 10