Tuesday, 28 January 2014

Heartbeat by Elizabeth Scott

Sponsored post: I received a digital copy of this book for free on a read-to-review basis. Thanks to Harlequin Teen and Netgalley.
HeartbeatBlurb (from Goodreads):
Life. Death. And...Love?

Emma would give anything to talk to her mother one last time. Tell her about her slipping grades, her anger with her stepfather, and the boy with the bad reputation who might be the only one Emma can be herself with.

But Emma can't tell her mother anything. Because her mother is brain-dead and being kept alive by machines for the baby growing inside her.

Meeting bad-boy Caleb Harrison wouldn't have interested Old Emma. But New Emma-the one who exists in a fog of grief, who no longer cares about school, whose only social outlet is her best friend Olivia-New Emma is startled by the connection she and Caleb forge.

Feeling her own heart beat again wakes Emma from the grief that has grayed her existence. Is there hope for life after death-and maybe, for love?

Heartbeat by Elizabeth Scott

My rating: 3.25 of 5 stars

Heartbeat(Source: I received a digital copy of this book for free on a read-to-review basis. Thanks to Harlequin Teen and Netgalley.)
17-year-old Emma sees her dead mother every day – at the hospital where her body is kept alive by machines in order to incubate the baby she was pregnant with when she died.

Emma blames her step-father Dan for the situation, because she believes that he chose to keep her mother alive for the sake of his son, something that Emma doesn’t agree with.
Will the baby survive? Can Emma live with her mother being dead but not dead? And can she ever forgive her step-father for the difficult decision that he was forced to make?

This was an unusual story, which raised moral questions, explored grief, and was ultimately very sad.

Emma was a character that I both loved and hated. At times I understood where she was coming from, and the grief and anger that she was feeling, whilst at other times I just hated her for wanting her brother to die.

The storyline in this book was really quite heart breaking. I understood the difficult decision that Emma’s stepfather had had to make, but I just didn’t get why Emma was so angry about it. I understood that her anger was part of her grief, but I just felt like her anger was misdirected. She continually blamed Dan for choosing ‘his son’ over her mother, when in reality it wasn’t a choice of one or the other! The choice was whether to let her mother die, or let both of them die, and I was just so upset by the way that Emma would rather her brother die, than have her mother kept alive for a few weeks to allow him to live.

To be honest this book upset me. A lot. Why Emma thought that her brother should die, and why she thought that her mother wouldn’t have wanted her baby to survive I don’t know, but the thought that if it had been up to Emma she would have just switched the machines off and let both her mother and her brother die made me feel physically sick. Especially when she had been told that it wasn’t the pregnancy that caused her mother’s death.

I don’t really want to think about this book anymore because I find it really quite depressing and sad. The ending was good, and we were left with hope that things would be better, but this whole story just makes me want to cry, and not in a good way. The idea that Emma would kill her little brother as some sort of retribution or revenge for her mother’s death was just sickening.
Overall; emotional story about a girl overtaken by grief.
6.5 out of 10.

1 comment:

  1. This book was a riveting read. The raw emotion of Emma's sense of loss was wonderfully written. Emma and Caleb's love story was touching. I recommend this read.